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Energy, Faith, gratitude, Higher Power, Higher self, Hope, Love, You Are Not The Boss Of Me

Another glimpse into “You Are Not The Boss Of Me”.

April 21, 2021
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How does one determine an audience for a memoir?  We are pieces of our experiences and the people we have met along the way. We are all so unique and mystical and diverse and yet still connected.. I do not know about you, but for me being pegged inside a box seems insulting. I like to believe I am authentic yet ever changing. I also like to believe my book appeals to an undetermined and unlimited demographic.

My greatest wish however, would be that young people gravitated to it. I would love for them to see the opportunities I  created from rose coloured glasses and blind faith. In all of my stories and lessons, in my victories and losses, lies an undeniable thread of faith. Faith in ourselves, in the goodness of people and in the source of our energy. Our Higher selves as some will say, God for others, law of attraction, vibration, whatever ones beliefs might be. For let me assure you, one of the greatest gifts of this human journey is our ability to choose what we believe. Why we belittle and look down upon those who follow their own intuitive reality is beyond me. Trying to solve the mystery, unlock the code, discover your soul, meet your spirit, be authentic and love in totality is the adventure. When we find ourselves in proximity to the truth, we are surrounded by joy and awe and ridiculously exciting goosebumps.

To our millennials and Gen Zedders. I hope by throwing my ego out the window in my book and sharing my sky 4EA0E70A-CEBA-4AA4-976B-3C34E910C4FEis falling apocalypses you come to understand you have nothing to fear. I hope you begin to question the illusion of  society and begin to see your life truly is the narrative you give it. Trusting and believing in hope and possibilities will offer you limitless potential where as living solely from left brain logic and the fear of judgment from others will become a prison of your own making.
Right and wrong are perception. When you realize the incredible goodness and moral compass that you rely upon is also the same one others are using, you understand our need for love, connection and unity. My book is  about forgiveness and facing fear and learning to love. My book is our story, it speaks to the desires, misguided frailties and limitless potential of who we are.

 

Energy, gratitude, Hope, Love

Ashamed No More

April 1, 2021
Intuitive painting, I call her Effie from the Hunger Games

Intuitive painting, I call her Effie from the Hunger Games

Dear society, 

Them, they, those people.

Today I claim my freedom.

I set myself free from your bondage,

I am ashamed no more.

This shame was not caused by you,

it was created by me.

I will not give you that power.

It was I who ignored my own guidance. 

It was I who was too afraid to listen to the pleading of my soul.

It was I who forgot who my contract was with.

My Spirit must reign supreme.

Today I refuse, I refuse your judgments.

I refuse to live in your fear.  

I refuse to obey your conformity.

You cannot smother my light. 

You will not stifle my voice,

I will not shrink from my breath, 

to honour your fear and deny my love.

Society….. I will not be ruled by you.

I don’t live for your pleasure,

I don’t act like you, I do not live for you. 

I am me, you own me not. 

A free person has no grievances.

I am no longer ashamed

I am free

You do you and I will do me.

I love you for YOU, not for what you do for me.

Will you love me for me?

None of us are special but all of us unique.

We are all love and light.

Raise your vibration. 

Let go of all blame, let go of all shame.

Be free like me.



Even if it’s just for a moment…..Be free. 

Energy, gratitude, You Are Not The Boss Of Me

Goodreads Giveaway Gratitude

March 28, 2021

The best days of my life are always the ones where I fill my heart with gratitude and let the joy find its way in. Today was one of those days where I realized my good fortune and made sure I did not let that supercharged energy slip away.

And so I say to all of those book lovers who had the interest and took the time to enter my “You Are Not The Boss Of Me” goodreads giveaway….Thank you. From the bottom of my heart I say I am grateful for your indulging and supporting this unknown author.

I received the list of 15 winners this morning and promptly addressed 15 envelopes. I wrote each of you a note in my messy handwriting and whether or not I got it right, please know it was written from a place of wanting to share the energy of gratitude. Wanting to say there was something for each of us in this experience, after all, does not everyone enter our lives for a reason? 2367E3B7-C50D-4A04-8548-71D95A4BDBD6

Addressed and ready to hit the post office Monday morning. Let’s hope heading across the border does not delay them for too long.

Energy, Faith, Featured, gratitude, Higher Power, Higher self, Hope, Love

Generation Z- We Need You!

March 18, 2021
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 Dear next generation to rule the world, generation “Z”.

If it was up to me, I would dub you generation “Hope”. I would proclaim this not to pressure you but rather to help you rise above. Rise above the limitations of the material world. See past the old 3 dimensional view of the world and into the power of faith and beyond. 

I am not talking religion for that word alone has been anathematized beyond recognition. If you ever want to do a study on society’s illogical emotional responses to words, God and religion would top the list of contentious verbiage. Faith would be up there but still allows some semblance of sanity when used sparingly.

 What a great challenge for us philosophy nerds – are nerds on the endangered list yet?  Can we pinpoint the most prominent words that create the most discomfort and find a way to make them pure again. Not slang or words of hate, just simple descriptive words or names that create irrational responses. 

If any group of people can make this happen I think it is dear generation Z. Why? They don’t know better and know it all like those of us who have ripened. Our darling Zedders have grown up with the intellect of the world at their finger tips. I trust that they  are still willing to try different search engines and engage in thoughts and ideas that go beyond what is being fed to us on tv and social media.

 Oops, I digressed. Sorry! I do that, I am not the easiest writer to follow. Sometimes inside my head is an episode of hoarders and writing is how I declutter- protect yourself :).

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Back to faith: Faith; as I tend to state in numerous blogs, and an inordinate number of times at that, is the opposite of fear. Faith to me is the only organic, drug free tool that successfully combats depression, anxiety, doubt, stress, lethargy and a host of other complex human sufferings. Before I lose you thinking I am attacking science let me explain.

We are made of energy. Scientists (society’s Gods) have stated and proven this to be fact. I have never set foot in a physics class so I will not even attempt to go into detail. However, from what I have experienced and know, all energy has a source. Which means that we as energetic beings must have a source. So if I have an energy source, does it not make profound sense to try and connect to that source? To try and develop the best possible connection to that source with the least interference? Should that source not be where I go when I am feeling depleted? If there is a source from which I am energetically connected, does it not stand to reason that my emotional, intellectual and physical health are attached to it? 

I am not questioning medication as much as I am questioning a world that does not look at holistic and spiritual resources before introducing medicines that have been PROVEN to have other negative health impacts. Especially as it relates to our children. I do not blame anyone, not parents or health care practitioners and especially not the children. It is not about blame, it is about alternatives that societies prejudicial lens has denied or kept hidden. Once again- Generation Z, can you fix this and bring some  open minded collaborative thought and non explosive conversation to the table here? 

I don’t know about you, but I am of the belief that why would I settle for 150 amp service when I can try and connect to 3 phase power. Or better yet, those lithium crystals that powered the Starship Enterprise, or was it dilithium? Scotty would know, or Data. Would that not be the best green juice you ever drank? Just as we cannot see our energy field but we know it is there, we also cannot see our source. This is easy to follow right?

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know that I personally rise and fall based on my energetic health. Physical and emotional energy being the most prominent and obvious. Yes, we can operate at a base level self propelling on will power, but this method is limiting and completely dependant on outside events and other peoples energy to influence us.  If this is all you desire then stay in the basement and watch tv. If however, you wish more from life, then may I suggest you begin your search for your Source. You notice I said “Your” Source. That is because I honestly believe that determining your own beliefs and purpose is the kick ass exciting reason why we walk as individuals on this earth plane. It is your very own crazy adventure to carve out; why not make it the best life your heart/mind can create? 

Faith is trusting in something you cannot see but know without doubt it exists. You have to feel your way into connecting to it and this is where the miracles happen, where your reality begins to change and life flows to the mystic. This life of faith holds greater adventures, greater clarity and greater focus. I used three greater’s in a row just to drive the ego side of me crazy. The perfectionist is sitting in horror screaming you do not even need a thesaurus to find a better word. I love messing with my ego.

So back to dear generation Z. You have access to all the information of which I speak of. You don’t need to have been born to a family of quantum mechanical physicists or even influenced by the teachings of a wise Shaman or mystic or minister or high priestess. I think of myself as the “She-Wolf”; energized by the moon and the stars and the natural cycles of life both in the sky and on earth. Today anyways, tomorrow I might be spreading pixie dust or over analyzing spread sheets. 

The Sage has the wisdom to understand perception. To honour freedom, to seek truth, and to remain committed to the vision even as the world around appears to be crumbling. This is faith and this is knowing. We are energy, connected to source. We are capable of communicating at a higher level and when we grasp all that this means we will come face to face with human exceptionalism. 

I am sort of writing a book on this, but in the meantime my dear generation Zedders, here is why the spiritual realm is worth your attention. You will discover that fear is something you can control. All of these wars, and injustices and even our reaction to covid are  responses steeped in fear. How can we be living in a world of such vast abundance and yet so many people are feeling helpless, unloved and live in poverty? We have been sharing darkness and victimhood when we could have been giving and sharing from our abundance of light and joy. From a vibrational alignment of our choosing.

Joy is your birthright. Our optimum performance is when we are sharing our high vibrational loving energy. The law of attraction is real. What we extend is what we receive. Note this, look around at the extension of fear through tv, then stop and breathe and realize that your happy reality is just an opposite thought away. I am connected to Source, I am limitless and I am eternal because I am energy. I am a conscious bearer of light, I am an energy God that can make a difference by the simple act of sharing the energy of joy, hope and love. I make a difference in this world by holding up a mirror to you and showing you the incredible love and beauty I see inside you. You can do the same for others, it’s our function and it is your truth. 

Energy, gratitude, Hope, Love

The Give Away Experience

March 2, 2021
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There was a time not so long ago that I would not dream of confessing what I am about to share. Cool people do not let on that something actually excites them or impacts them in a particular way. We normally just smile bigger or turn away. Getting swept up in emotions is not cool.

I am like you, a crazy human that is equally capable of nailing it or falling flat on her face. Your need to judge my highs or my lows has nothing to do with me and everything to do with you, and that is a beautiful thing. Through each other we recognize ourselves, our fears and our loves. The secret is realizing we are doing it. It’s understanding we are often having an emotional response that has nothing to do with the individual and everything to do with our own energy.

My ego, probably like yours,  is a perfectionist whose demands no one could ever live up to. When I let her run amok in my head she builds me up and then cuts me off at the knees. Whenever my ego gets a hold of the reins chaos follows. Egos are fearful and fragile, they need constant special attention. I have finally come to realize my soul is a much better leader. She could care less about opinion, she just wants to love and have fun.

So here I am trying to promote my book- again. Early on, when the first copies came out, I was terrified to have people read it. I spent a couple of years selling or giving copies away to friends and family and carefully expanding that circle a bit. The reviews (personal notes, emails and verbal) were not what I expected, they were deeper and more personal. Beautiful, kind, warm and very moving. In being so open I had touched a chord, we are as the truly inspirational Maya Angelou stated in Human Family “We are more alike, my friends, than we are unalike.”  And I saw this through responses and the conversations were beautiful…Yet still, with all the support I received I stopped there. Why?

Energy, I think I was material world tired. My thoughts were focused on everything that was difficult as opposed to the excitement of launching a book. All I heard was that publishers want authors that have platforms  (read large group of followers and A huge email list ). I felt defeated.  It was hard enough as an unknown to get my foot in the door and have an expert read my book, how much harder would this be without an email list; a process that did not sit well with me.

So I decided I would take my book and go at it alone. I managed to figure out how to get an ebook created and placed “You Are Not The Boss Of Me”on Amazon. And there, without a platform or a marketing budget, “Boss” remained in nowhere land, home of the insecure.

 

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Until now. Now, after a few years in exile slaying dragons and facing fears I have resurfaced on the other side. It was like walking out of that long dark tunnel, I made it into the light again. I love this new way of living. It is accepting and freeing. This complete knowing that I need not fear or try to be something I am not. My opinion does not matter, and I love this, I love that I do not have to save the world with my words. What matters is the hope and promise and positivity that I share. People do not need my negative energy and fearful thoughts anymore then I need theirs. Expansive communication is all about solutions and possibilities, the good stuff.

So this is a big part of my lessons in exile. I have decided to try and follow only my intuition… Intuition is the inner knowing, it’s the awareness of energy, the understanding that we are made of energy and of course it matters. This is not weird and outlandish mysticism, (although I do love that stuff) this is scientific, chemical, physics. When we tend to our spiritual, emotional, intellectual energy our physical energy will follow, it has too.

Absolute law of attraction joy. Create the energy, create the vibration and then live in it. What we extend we receive, extend only loving words and energy and you will find it coming to you from everywhere. Happiness, gratitude, it all follows the same law of giving and receiving.

At the beginning of this piece I mentioned I was going to share something I would never have done in my cool days….. Here goes. When my book giveaway promotion on goodreads started on Saturday and I saw over 150 people sign up within the first few hours I was giddy with excitement. I was elated and I was dancing and stepped way beyond the coolness or aloofness of smirking. I shared over FaceTime with my 21 year old daughter and together the energy ramped up even more. We created this amazing vibe for the day. By the time I went to bed my book requests reached 300. What a wonderful feeling it was, but made so much better by my willingness to let go and embrace the gift.

My old way of thinking would have compared, and doubted, and worried and found a plethora of ways to remain low key so I was not disappointed or hurt. That ego of fear while trying to protect my heart from the pain of disappointment has unwittingly been denying me joy.

This energy and the source I am tapping into, all I can say is I want everyone to experience this. I am cool alright, but I am no longer an aloof tough cool, I am a Hippy kind of cool. It’s all about speaking and living from the heart not the ego mind. The energy of love is real and it does not conform to societies walls, it removes them. It is such a wonderful thing to express our energy without fear, to realize we are all here to create and enjoy these good vibrations.